Outside the Camp - 7.21.08

Dear D.

The highest love one person can bestow on another is to bring them Christ and bring them to Christ.

By loving Christ because He fist loved us, we experience peace, joy and faith that are higher and happier then any natural "love" in the soul. I have experienced this. . . . By his mercy I will continue to experience this. When I told the Lord that I wouldn't lose the love and beuaty of his face for a person's face I was flooded with joy. . . and also with the assurance that the price I paid would be the means of bringing God to this person. I have the assurnace now that he will meet the Lord. . . and when he does he'll understand even more. . . and there will be no bitterness, but thankfulness.

The Word says. . . "they overcame Him (referring to the author of the evils of this age) . . .by the blood of the lamb, and by the Word of their Testimony and loved not their Soul-life unto death. . . therefore Rejoice! Rejoice! Rejoice!

You don't really believe the thing you profess to believe. . . that human love is a God to be worshipped, whatever the source of circumstances. . . or you wouldn't have advised me against procaticing this.

I am sorry you spoke to your brother. . . I would ask you to refrain from speaking it to any other family members. . . we want to hear no more. Any person you have a romantic attachment to is not welcome in our home unless they are male & you have an engagement or firm intent of one. It would be nice to mee him first. . . a courtesy neither you nor M. paid us.

Leprosy is a type of sin. Lepers had to stay outside the camp until considered cleansed by the priest as a protection to the health of the children of Israel as they travelled together. Moses, God's man of that age. . . spoke these things for their benefit and protection.

If you continue to marginalize the Christ who indwells you and speak these things to us & other family members we may have to do something similar.

The Bible is open in our home. . . you may not blow in the front door and tell us "You don't want to hear that."

You ar proud, defiant, full of yourself and full of a truck-load of liberal garbage. Until you come to yourself and come home to be fed like the prodigal son we will pray for that day to come. Oh. And I'm not willing to be hung up on. . . (by coming home I mean willing to listen with an open spirit.)

After I came out - 7.19.08

Dear D.,


Thank you for your last call. We are not just family members but fellow members of the body of Christ. Your turning back to us in honesty and confidence is a turning back to God...a beginning...


You have been saturated with many things in the course of your education. These things are often disguised as "progressive, cutting edge and new...." Actually many of them are old...as old as the old serpent, the devil...

Yes, he is as real (as the Spirirt who lives in your spirit), and is a destroyer. He injects thoughts into the mind... How do you recognize them?


The ancient Jews escaped the practices of "the nations"...not just various kinds of homosexuality and lesbianism...(but bestiality also) by adhering to their holy writings...given to them by God...& the law given by Moses.

Recently I was at a Jewish Barmitzfa for the first time...and it was awesome to realize that before Christ became the Life Giving Spirit to indwell man...God preserved a people for thousands of years to be his testimony among the inhabitants of the Earth...the shed blood of animals in the tabernacle attoned for sin.

Today we have God's Word in both Old and New Testaments. There are two sexes...& you are a biologically normal woman.

Any thought that you are something else, is against Gods word & from the destroyer. Any experinece in the soul and body that is against God's natural laws can be covered by the shed blood of Christ...you need to ask God to heal your soul...min emotion and will...ask the Lord Jesus to forgive the fornication and anything else you might have experienced that is apart from Him. The blood of Christ was shed for you & it covers all sin we repent of....

You have 11 more years of youth...don't waste them...you have experienced enough death already. Just tell the Lord you are sorry and that you want to experience life not death.

We will and have been praying for you daily...God will bring you a proper match in his time... Concentrate on work, normalizing your life habits with exercise, enough sleep & healthy food.

Start to feed your spirit a little each day...this is about being normal....an anorexic Christian is not a healthy one and is vulnerable to every passing germ ( or philosophy lifetsyle etc)

Any thought that you can't change, become fresh & new & vital & cleansed, come from the evil one. Sorry for the bluntness...I also turn from my soul to my spirit to gain Christ.

Love,

Mom